☆ Ranting about whatever ☆

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This is where I'll probably update the most. I'll just yap about whatever, my life, my day, school or family tea. Also complaining. I complain a lot xD. I'll maybe also vent? If I do I will make it clear it's a vent in like the title or the first paragraph. Maybe I'll also talk about alterhumanity since lots of people don't know much about it.

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21/08/2026 (dd/mm/yy)

Gender dysphoria and euphoria (vent-ish?)

First rant, kinda nervouss xD. So this first rant won't be too happy or too long. It's about gender dysphoria and euphoria. As said in my intro, I am boyflux, which means my gender fluctuates between feeling more masculine to feeling more genderless. It's kind of like a dial, sometimes it's cranked up, sometimes it's down. Today it's one of those days where I feel more genderless. I don't feel like a guy or a girl or both. I don't feel like nothing, the best way I could describe it is kinda like a jellyfish..? If that makes any sense. I still present more masculine as I prefer it, but today I felt like wearing a skirt. and so I did, grabbed a skirt from my mom's closet cuz i don't own any skirts and put it on. I ended up really liking the outfit and even showed it to my mom.

Big mistake.

I jokingly mentioned that it was times like these that made me question my transgenderness (side note, my mom knows I'm trans but not boyflux) but she did NOT like the joke. She said that the dysphoria I sometimes felt wasn't real dysphoria and that I was making it up because she too was sometimes uncomfortable wearing skirts. Who's gonna tell her dysphoria isn't just "feeling a bit uncomfortable by wearing skirts"? Mind you, I get horrible dysphoria episodes where I refuse to wear anything but my dysphoria hoodie and RARELY leave the house. So to say I was beyond mad and uncomfortable with her comment was being generous. I wanted to argue, but I knew I wouldn't win. You can't argue with a wall that won't budge.

So I just went back to my room and KEPT my skirt on cuz she can't tell me what to wear. And because the fit is fire.

That's it for this rant, I might make another one today cuz there's a whole goth and alternative event going on in my town and I might get ya'll some updates on that. C ya on my next rant! x3

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